resurrection of a bleeding heart

what’s the difference between a dopamine hit and peace?

both are fleeting, well at least in my case

the remedy is surrender

the addiction is control

the resolution can’t be complacency

but unabashedly it is

self governing illusions determining right and wrong

manic dispositions reside and fostering creativity is my resolution

my death sentence

I welcome them with a wavering and weary smile and my bleeding heart resurrecting my martyrdom yet again.